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Salam'alaik semua...

(tIBA2 air bandung yang kubeli dari cafe tumpah)

*selepas mengelap air...

Ikhlas ke ni?

Ana ada buat banyak silap dalam hidup ini. Dan walaupun ana rasa ana tak ingat akan perbuatan tu... Hati akan sentiasa mengingatinya, dan hati ini...selalu mengingatkan ana akan kesilapan ana.

Selalu...

Ikhlas ke ni?

Entahlah, mungkin sebab ana penat, mungkin kurangnya mutabaah, mungkin hati ini ketagih dengan lebih ilmu.... ana rasa hari ini sangat, sangat.... biarlah rahsia...

Ikhlas ke ni?

SEMUA SENYAP! ingin sahaja ana melaungkan dua perkataan itu terhadap dunia ini. Walaupun ana berada di bilik yang kosong, tanpa sesiapa di situ... ana rasa dunia ni sangat bising...

Ikhlas ke ni?

Ana tak sihat ke ni? Ya... Ana jawab sendiri... Ana sakit...Hati ana sakit rupanya...

Ikhlas ke ni?

Antunna perasankan perkataan ni "Ikhlas ke ni?" Ana selalu tulis kan... Sebagai peringatan, kalau tak... ana rasa nak robek keluar je hati ana ni... riak, saling membelenggu diriku...

p/s: Ana nak pulang, tapi ana takut, takut tak diterima... Ampunilah dosa kami, Ya Allah Yang Maha Mengasihani...

MESSAGE 1

YOU WORK/LIVED AS IF YOU’LL DIE TOMORROW AND LEARN AS IF YOU’LL LIVE FOREVER. BELIEVE THAT IN THE END EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY, AND IF IT’S NOT, IT’S NOT THE END

Who am I? What am I doing? Where are we going? What is our final destination? Alas, I think...I think I found the answer for these questions. Maybe… I hope.

There are two things that I discover about myself for this past month…One, is that I am a greedy person.

Human are greedy. We are never satisfied with one thing. I guess that what make us and the angel different. We are dynamic. We kept on expanding and speeding ahead, at least some of us are (others choose to escape the real world and ran away, huh, pointless). We‘re not satisfied with perfection. We want more… and more.

Telephone + calculator+ alarm clock+mp3 + radio+ camera+ video camera+ GPS+ internet+ small computer+ notebook… the list is endless…

So, what do we do? Keep on making things of course, keep on satisfying our need of not being satisfied…

BUT, DON’T YOU GET IT? WE WILL NEVER BE SATISFIED.

No matter how many things you create, you discover, you find, you look for, you will end up doing them AGAIN AND AGAIN… and there will be other people making more new things… And at one point you’ll find a dead end… You will feel tired.

Tell me, if men are capable of making something to anything… what is the capability of The Creator of YOU?! Who makes absolutely nothing into EVERYTHING?

I learn that, if you really want something, and be completely satisfied with it… why not go the source itself? Am I making any sense?

(Note to self: Find out how to make more sense of yourself…because, truly sometimes you make no sense to yourself).

Today, I am greedy with love… I find out that the love of humankind is limited. You’ll get it only if he or she is available for you, in which being human who will die, need sleep, need to go to work and do what they need to do to survive, shows how limited their love is. Boyfriend/Girlfriend, what can they REALLY give you? YOU’LL BE DISAPPOINTED.

Me? I want His love, My Creator’s Love…

BISMILLAH

Moga2 blog ini dapat memenuhi hati-hati ini dengan taujih dan pesanan yang baik dan berguna. InsyaALLAH